I’ve been learning a great deal from the lessons in this experiment…

Asking For What I Want

I notice that when I’m consistently focusing on what I want, a ‘fear’ or concern comes up for me, that is afraid of being let down or not getting what I want. It’s like I was trained early on not to set my expectations too high otherwise I risk being disappointed. I guess a lot of people probably have experiences from early on that trained them that way, or parental figures that taught them that….

Nevertheless, constantly focusing on my desires feels a little strange… I’m not used to it.

Perhaps part of the reason I’ve been so good at focusing on the things in life I’m not excited about in the past is because I get to be ‘right,’ and I won’t be disappointed when my expectations aren’t met.

I realize that this is just a muscle to work, that focusing on what I want, feeling that it’s already here and feeling really good about it is just practice. I’m not yet comfortable with it, but I’m becoming more comfortable with it each day.

Expanding Visualizations

Over the past 4 days during my visualization/meditation sessions I’ve watched my mental movies get a lot more in-depth and exciting. The first day I couldn’t really decide what I wanted… so I just focused on the first things that came to mind that made me feel good… New BMW, romance, a great home with a killer view…

As the days have progressed, I’ve expanded these visualizations to include more of what I’m creating and doing, rather than just having things.

Yesterday I wrote down my values and started including visions with those values, including adventure and social situations.

What came to me last night in a visualization was that I really want to travel and do adventurous stuff around the world, such as scuba diving, paragliding, and just other experiences…

I also saw that I wanted to have experiences with a group of like-minded, “high vibrational” entrepreneurs… people who live alternative lifestyles and are successful… people who are the kind of person I’m becoming…

Then, today, that visualization continued to expand, I saw myself traveling, having these experiences, and possibly even hosting or leading in-person group retreats or masterminds… or even assembling a team to teach workshops on abundance, entrepreneurship, location independence, dating even, among other things… I like that a lot.

Synchronicity?

Last night I was riding my bike home, it was dark and cold, but a clear, beautiful night out. I decided to just enjoy it, and I took my headphones out to be present and just feel good…

Less than a minute after I took my headphones out I saw, a mothaf*ckin’ asteroid falling out of the sky, maybe a few hundred yards away, burning up in the atmosphere. I thought it was a firework or something at first…

It was incredible! I’d never seen anything like that before so close up.

I choose to see that as a sign from my reality that it’s responding to my new vibration, bringing me more beauty and things to get excited about…

It’s possible that maybe that’s my overly optimistic, diluted mind thinking that, but it feels good to believe that, so I choose to.

Art

Today I was inspired to do more that brings me joy…

As I came into the tea shop I regularly work at, I saw art hanging all over the walls, I though, man that’s cool… So opened up Adobe Illustrator and started creating some collage art…

I spent at least 90 minutes just creating some weird image, but I had a lot of fun doing it. I lost track of time, you could say I was in ‘the zone.’

While I’m connecting with more of what I enjoy with this experiment, work still needs to get done. I spend almost a couple of hours that I could’ve been done copywriting… So there’s that. I guess I’ll have to find a balance.

Appreciating Women

I’m noticing how much seeing beautiful women can have an impact on my vibration…

My conditioned, old way of thinking can end up bringing my vibration down sometimes…

I noticed yesterday that often when I see a girl I’m really attracted to, I have a hard time sitting with those feelings and just letting them be. I feel strong urges that I want her, like I need to do something about it such as go up and talk to her…

This isn’t a place I want to be coming from because that doesn’t serve me unless I use it as an excuse to go up and talk to her and maybe something comes about it…

But even if I did go and talk to her, I would be coming from a needy place, like “I have to have her, otherwise I’m not worthy,” and that’s lame.

So since I noticed that automatic, conditioned way of thinking about girls I’m attracted to, I’ve decided to make a conscious shift, one that lifts my vibration…

I’m practicing appreciating women’s beauty. The girls who I’m attracted to, and also girls who I’m not attracted to, appreciating their feminine grace and the joy they bring me and the world. It’s a challenging switch in perspective, but it feels much, much better.

So far, so good :)

 

 

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